Have you ever heard of the crying baby syndrome? It’s
when the baby does something bad and the parent discipline the baby. But then
the baby still crawls back to the parent crying but wanting hugs and kisses. It’s
crazy because why would the baby still want the hugs and kisses after the parent
just disciplined him/her. I feel like that’s me. I’m the baby. My guy is the
parent. Unintentionally, he is hurting me. He has a lot going on in his
personal life. He’s going through so many ups and downs. Those ups and downs
are affecting our relationship drastically. But as the baby I still crawl back
to him with the tears running down my cheeks. It’s so hard to imagine letting
him go. If I were to dream of the perfect man it would be him. I never felt
this type of love before. I prayed to God to give me a sign that this is the
guy he wants me to be with. The next day my Mr. told me he loves me. Ever since
then all reservations I had came crumbling down to the ground. See I was afraid
to love again but knowing he loves me brought a light to my world. But months
later I’m wondering if God really wanted me with him… But I’m thinking how
could he not… What should I do??? What should I pray?? Should I remain the
baby? Should I put on my big girl panties and realize this is not working out
the way I want it to? Should I just sip my tea and wait to see what happens?
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